Wednesday, March 03, 2010
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who will listen to my deepest inquisitions?

Last night, something hit me really hard. i couldn't sleep. There were like many things running through my mind and i have to sort them out.

I don't know if i should feel happy knowing what i know now. i used to wonder what could have happen out of us if i persisted, i thought i knew the answer to that but maybe i was wrong?

We all go about in circles. Sometimes, we all don't tell the truth, or even we do not want to hear the truth either. When reality crash hard, only then we look for the truth. Its right there, in front of you. Though you don't see it with your own eyes, however you heard it from another friend of yours.

It didn't tear me apart this time. I thought i've recovered but somehow, it still affected me a little when i heard about it. I'm actually quite proud of myself that i didn't shed any tears cos i know clearly that its worthless. You handled this r/s in an inappropriate way, you chose to end everything through sms rather than meeting me up to talk things out. Is this what you called 'responsible'? Besides saying sorry, theres no other words you could say. If i never asked whether do you have feelings for another girl when i sensed something was wrong, perhaps our r/s will still be dragging on till now. I'm sure you clearly know that if you told me you have feelings for her, i will definitely chose to accept your reason and leave you. But yet, you told me you didn't expect this outcome. What the hell!

And you once said, 'since i'm together with you, the most important thing is that i treat you good, why should i treat your parents well?'

i felt so naive at that point of time, i didn't utter any words when he said that. Thinking back of what he said... Mind you, if wanna treat me good, you have got to treat and respect my parents well too.

If you are not filial to my parents, then i strongly believe that you are not a good man to be with in the future either.

you wanted us to be friends, you msg me, yet on the other hand you are with a new girlfriend of yours. You hurt me unknowingly. What am i supposed to say? Isn't this a selfish/greedy act of yours?

Pig said, he's really a loser being a man.

Mummy said 'don't you feel that you are not truly happy when u were together with him? you have to wait for him everytime and when you were hungry, he did not even initiated to bring you go eat. Moreover where is he when you were feeling upset.'

It's too late to say all these now anyway...

it took effort gettin you out of my mind, i dont wanna go through that phase again. The bitter tears, heart aches, swollen eyes. Since you don't feel a tinge of sadness for what happened, why should i?

It's not surprising that you definitely know my gf will tell me what she saw. Singapore is so small. Knowing my gf saw you, you let go of the girl's hand. Dammit!

i've got nothing to hide. do you?

im not sure if they will last, whatever it is... i wish he'll never appear in my life ever again. 2, 3, 4 or even 10 years down the road. I never wanna have anything to do with him anymore.

i believe i will lead a better life without you. i would eventually find someone else anyway, like i said.. hopefully someone better than you.

I am not ready to fall head over heels over a guy and reach to a commitment yet. MY life is only beginning here. I am not ready to share it with someone else no matter how much i yearn too.

Its me, i don't change for anyone, and no one has to change for me. This is reality because we can't all please everyone. i am rather choosy about my mates and friends. As cliche as it is, i believe someday, there will definitely be that someone out there. That someone who sincerely accept you for who you are no matter if you are fat, skinny, ugly, pretty and with/without makeup. Most importantly he has to be filial to my parents and elderly.

P/S: thanks for letting me know. thanks, hf.








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i am christine who is blessed with what i have.

i am 27 this year and my birthday falls on 4th august.

i'm just another ordinary girl.
i don't live life to be famous or someone great. i just live
for the success, love and happiness.

Though i may appear aloof at times but im actually approachable.
You will get to realise when you know me better
and how crazy can i be. :)

my life is like a ferris wheel, has it's ups and downs...

Though over the years,i've stumbled on rocks. i know
very well that with each time, I managed to pick myself up.
It makes me to be more wiser and grow stronger
with experiences that i've learnt & gained.

However things that happened didn't bring me down cos i
believe that everything happens for a reason, this may
leads me a happier life. THUS, i'm still generally a
happy person.

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Looking back at certain aspects of my life so far,
i can't pride myself upon what makes the me today.
There are way too many regrets.

I feel uber sensitive about everything, thus getting hurt
easily at the slightest remark and i hate to cry infront of everyone.

I live the life the way i want it to be for nobody knows what
future might brings.

I am blessed to have a great caring family and close friends
by my side. They're the ones who will stay by me no matter
what happens and i know i can count on them always.

i meet new people, learning something from each and
every person i've came across.

i would say thay i have grown alot through experience
and exposure to different things these few years.

Sometimes things are complicated including people as well.
It might not turn out the way we want it to be or meeting
people who aren't true to you. Thus, it pretty much
depends on how we see and handle them.

Life's beautiful...
everything around me seems to glow with a touch of magic dust...
lookin' forward to the future..
wanna fly towards my dreams..
just wanna smile n laugh with each passing day with my loved ones...
learn & see more about the world around me..

If I was never good enough, then I will work my way up forever..
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live it, love it.. and still learning from it

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