Monday, March 01, 2010
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I've learned that maturity
has more to do with
what types of experiences you've had
and what you've learned from them,
and less to do with
how many years you have lived.

If its mine, make it mine.
If it hurts make it go away.

These days I find myself coming to a crossroad. I ponder all day long on what’s in store for my future. At the same time, I find myself grieving a part of me that has been well taken care of for the past 20 years or so. What a joke isn’t it. Having prepped to do whatever that lead me up to this point, I suddenly have no slightest idea where to go from here onwards. The intensity of such helplessness grows on me & suddenly, I don’t enjoy doing the things I used to love. The aspirations I used to dream about, slowly fades away. The glow that used to follow me, diminishes as the days go by.

I wanted to be a piano teacher but yet, i lost the motivation to further my diploma in music cos i've stopped my lessons for a very long time.

Suddenly, i feel so old. i need to work hard to earn more money. Save more, go travel and plan for my future.

On a side note, i need to set aside $500 from april onwards cos i have purchased 3 insurance plans. And that 500 bucks cover only 2 plans. The another one is a annual basis so i will only have to pay every year.

Weekend is over! My heart couldn't stop thumping faster & faster since this morning cos i had just tendered my resignation. one has to move one. Since there's a better offer somewhere else, why not? Perhaps i think too much, things are not as bad as what I expected or maybe its because she's going for a pre-trip tomorrow. Like what Paul said, maybe when she's back next week then i will see a drastic change in her attitude. At this moment, i don't wanna think too much, i wish March will be over soon so that i will not see all those pretentious people here which i dislike so much, sick with the working environment.

Sometimes ignorance is bliss...

Mummy care for me alot, she even called me during lunch time and asked how things went. She knew i was very afraid since yesterday cos i kept sighing.

Whenever i tried to sleep these few nights, i'll always end up tossing here and there in my bed. Thus, leading me to deepest thoughts of some things which i know are unnecessary and stupid.

In the past, i don't usually listen to mp3 before i sleep. Now, i've to depend on it.

It was nice meeting up with pig on last thursday evening for dinner. Fortunately there was no awkardness between us after not seeing for ages. Dine in at bakerzin. Their strawberry shortcake was yummylicious! :) Pig was gentleman enough to spread the butter and toast the bread for me. You've changed (not say you aren't in the past). hehehe...

I asked him 'don't you think i recover quite fast for what happened in the previous r/s?' He replied 'no'. Duh... i thought i was and its a good thing. You shd feel happy for me ain't it? Prolly because you kept scolding and knocking sense onto me, thus im able to pick myself up again.

He told me he believe that all of us will only grow through the hard way. So he'll never ever say nice words to comfort me, instead its the other way round.

I pray for my true last man, my ending will be beautiful because I believe all my tears these years will help lead me to my true pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. my happiness is somewhere else waiting for me, to meet someone out there who deserve my love, kindness and truly appreciate me for who i am.

random random, i like my manicure. Though its not that perfect but i love the colour combination this time at least.

Finally had our company CNY lucky draw. Won 2 buffet vouchers to Furama hotel and taka vouchers as well. Gonna bring mummy to the buffet (i know she's happy) :) Seems like our company loves takashimaya alot cos everything seem to have taka vouchers involved. Haha!


Kai planned a dinner for us to gather together. Lateness kills. It was steamboat again! Everytime we went out, we will always end up having steamboat. But this time round, we had lo-hei too. Huat huat huat ah! come on get HIGHERRR!

Hopefully darling can join us for the next outing. Haven't been seeing her for a very very LONG time already.

i thought ah qiang has changed as in becoming quieter but he's NOT! Still as playful lah but thats good. Speedy recovery to kai's hand. :)

Snap snap snap!



































Visited Celine & Irene at wintertime. 拜年 with Celine and we received ang pows from her. I asked her did she forsee that we'll be coming and she said yes cos she had all the red packets ready for us. haha












































I had a great time with all of them. May our friendship bloom over the years! :)

It was Bridgestone (BSTSG) 9th anniversary dinner party last sat. Event was held at Furama riverfront hotel. I wouldn't say it was extremely fun that night but the entertainer, Donna Daniels was really funny. *thumbs up!









If you ask me whether is there anything for me to remember after leaving this company? There's none BUT the only thing is, i am thankful to have met this partner of mine in this company. Always patient with me, listening to all my whining, teaching me all the work i ought to know. :)

I just have to be patient.
I take a whole lot to realize, good things happen to people who waits.
maybe not in a way we expect, but good things just happens.

PS: Finally i finished reading that storybook. i can't wait to read the new one which i had borrowed.

"There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved."- George Sand

i know this entry is super LONG-WINDED! (hopefully you readers aren't falling alseep yet)

Goodbye =)

RANDOM FACT: i'm afriad of so many things, afraid to love, afriad to tell.








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i am christine who is blessed with what i have.

i am 27 this year and my birthday falls on 4th august.

i'm just another ordinary girl.
i don't live life to be famous or someone great. i just live
for the success, love and happiness.

Though i may appear aloof at times but im actually approachable.
You will get to realise when you know me better
and how crazy can i be. :)

my life is like a ferris wheel, has it's ups and downs...

Though over the years,i've stumbled on rocks. i know
very well that with each time, I managed to pick myself up.
It makes me to be more wiser and grow stronger
with experiences that i've learnt & gained.

However things that happened didn't bring me down cos i
believe that everything happens for a reason, this may
leads me a happier life. THUS, i'm still generally a
happy person.

:)

Looking back at certain aspects of my life so far,
i can't pride myself upon what makes the me today.
There are way too many regrets.

I feel uber sensitive about everything, thus getting hurt
easily at the slightest remark and i hate to cry infront of everyone.

I live the life the way i want it to be for nobody knows what
future might brings.

I am blessed to have a great caring family and close friends
by my side. They're the ones who will stay by me no matter
what happens and i know i can count on them always.

i meet new people, learning something from each and
every person i've came across.

i would say thay i have grown alot through experience
and exposure to different things these few years.

Sometimes things are complicated including people as well.
It might not turn out the way we want it to be or meeting
people who aren't true to you. Thus, it pretty much
depends on how we see and handle them.

Life's beautiful...
everything around me seems to glow with a touch of magic dust...
lookin' forward to the future..
wanna fly towards my dreams..
just wanna smile n laugh with each passing day with my loved ones...
learn & see more about the world around me..

If I was never good enough, then I will work my way up forever..
strive to be a better person, better friend, better daughter.

live it, love it.. and still learning from it

Appreciate the goodness in life everyone! =)


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LOVES

Little surprise would definitely melt my heart ♥

i love strawberries, strawberry shortcake,
spicy food, hot chocolate, fruit salad,
candies, cupcakes, drama, piano, travel,
perfumes, dresses, white roses, hugs,
handmade cards, written letters, pink color, family.

Loves music and piano has been part of my life
since young at the age of 8.

i love people who are true to me

i yearn to love. and i long to be loved in return.


LONG GONE




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