Sunday, March 07, 2010
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There are no more battles between her heart and mind
For them both have decided on the same thing this time

i don't know what got into me... my mind seem to be in a mess. my emotions become worse while listening to sad songs. I couldn't get myself to sleep at this hour. i ignored messages. i really destest myself sometimes, i hurt people unknowingly. i break hearts and i left mine broken too.

i feel unimportant, forlon. Now, im to a point to where i want to hide myself in my room and cry. It doesn't matter if others can really understand how i feel. Looking at my circle of friends, there are hi-bye friends, my girlfriends and basically just normal ones. Like i said, im rather choosy with making friends and who i share my problems to.

Looking back, there were some whom im really close to in the past. And you label them as your close friends, you doubt yourself whether are they really close to you. Where are they when you needed them? However, our friendship drifted due to work or other reasons. Neither of us takes the initiative to meet up, not even a sms, phone call or plainly nothing. I'm sure some of you had even been through this stage like me, your friends will always say okay we'll meet up one day but neither of you make any effort to plan it. And slowly as time goes by, the distance of this friendship will be further. How pathetic it is...

I don't understand how am i feeling, how could i expect others to understand me?

Sometimes, when i knew that im not able to take it anymore, then i would let them know. But im just merely seeking strength from their advices. However most of the times, no matter how upset i feel, i realised i would rather keep everything to myself. And when they asked how am i, i would always reply the same thing over and over again 'eh, im fine.'

i certainly know im lying. Now im feeling very awful. I thought i was in control. But on nights like this, i realised that i'm actually in the middle of nowhere. Neither here, nor there. If i don't love myself, nobody would. i dont wanna spend the rest of my life thinking about what could have been. It's time to get tougher. (Said is always easier than done.)

Being in this working society for nearly a year, i got a glimpse of how working environment is. Sadly to say, there're all kinds of people. i dislike my job, working environment, selfish people here and many more. i pray that my new job will be a better one.

Just because she comes off strong,
doesn't mean she didn't fall asleep crying.
and even though she acts like nothing's wrong,
Just because she comes off strong,
maybe she's just really good at lying.








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i am christine who is blessed with what i have.

i am 27 this year and my birthday falls on 4th august.

i'm just another ordinary girl.
i don't live life to be famous or someone great. i just live
for the success, love and happiness.

Though i may appear aloof at times but im actually approachable.
You will get to realise when you know me better
and how crazy can i be. :)

my life is like a ferris wheel, has it's ups and downs...

Though over the years,i've stumbled on rocks. i know
very well that with each time, I managed to pick myself up.
It makes me to be more wiser and grow stronger
with experiences that i've learnt & gained.

However things that happened didn't bring me down cos i
believe that everything happens for a reason, this may
leads me a happier life. THUS, i'm still generally a
happy person.

:)

Looking back at certain aspects of my life so far,
i can't pride myself upon what makes the me today.
There are way too many regrets.

I feel uber sensitive about everything, thus getting hurt
easily at the slightest remark and i hate to cry infront of everyone.

I live the life the way i want it to be for nobody knows what
future might brings.

I am blessed to have a great caring family and close friends
by my side. They're the ones who will stay by me no matter
what happens and i know i can count on them always.

i meet new people, learning something from each and
every person i've came across.

i would say thay i have grown alot through experience
and exposure to different things these few years.

Sometimes things are complicated including people as well.
It might not turn out the way we want it to be or meeting
people who aren't true to you. Thus, it pretty much
depends on how we see and handle them.

Life's beautiful...
everything around me seems to glow with a touch of magic dust...
lookin' forward to the future..
wanna fly towards my dreams..
just wanna smile n laugh with each passing day with my loved ones...
learn & see more about the world around me..

If I was never good enough, then I will work my way up forever..
strive to be a better person, better friend, better daughter.

live it, love it.. and still learning from it

Appreciate the goodness in life everyone! =)


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christine_wsy88@hotmail.com


LOVES

Little surprise would definitely melt my heart ♥

i love strawberries, strawberry shortcake,
spicy food, hot chocolate, fruit salad,
candies, cupcakes, drama, piano, travel,
perfumes, dresses, white roses, hugs,
handmade cards, written letters, pink color, family.

Loves music and piano has been part of my life
since young at the age of 8.

i love people who are true to me

i yearn to love. and i long to be loved in return.


LONG GONE




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