Friday, June 22, 2007
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I had entered a world of questions
Answers to be sought and found.
Inside my heart was chaos
And my wings had been strapped down.

My thoughts became reality
A mountain I fought to climb
The terrain was sharp and painful
As I fell so many times.


Everything has an ending.
Whats to question is whether the happy memories are worth the heartbreak.
Is there ever a happy ending?

Everything just aren`t right. Theres nothing really going right. My mood was really bad yesterday from evening then night time. A big misunderstanding between him and I . I didn`t even know the truth if I didn`t pick up his calllast night and if he never bother to clarify it with me.

So i was chatting on the msn in the evening before dinner and 'he' came and talk to me, telling me that he read my blog. Then 'he' asked me some weird questions which made me like what? Just a few days ago and u forgot? Don`t tell me you really have short-term memory. The next moment, 'he' told me he is back together with his ex again so asked me to congrats him. I`m happy to hear that so I asked him to treasure her. Nvm, so i went offline and sent him a message. And he replied cz he don`t know what am I talking all about. However I didn`t bother to reply after that because since you had already forget then whats the point of explaining then?

What worst?

'He' actually rejected ah er and I friendster request! This really made me so pissed off. Immediately, I sent him a message saying ' I do not understand what has it got to do with your girlfriend by accpeting ppl`s friendster request, instead you rejected it! See you'

Frankly speaking, I never add people in friendster unless I know them. Or the other way is those strangers took the initiative to add me first but somehow I rejected most of them because I do not know them at all. So I do not know whats wrong with friends adding each other on friendster? Hell...

So I message Yf telling him how I feel and he immediately called. Guess he was shocked too cz he thought I`m the happy go lucky girl then how come I am so down suddenly. This 'bf' passed his driving test. Congrats to you! U said wanna drive me one day ya? hahahahaha... Enjoy your trip. =) And don`t forget what you promise!

Well, I sensed something mysterious so after rejecting few of his calls, I sent him a message asking 'did you talk to me in msn in the evening?'

He called and explained everything in the end.. Misunderstanding finally solved. Therefore I told him, though both of u had already broke up, but I just don`t wanna be the 3rd party. Told him not to drag things further and if he still like her then sort things out with her. Any delay just won`t do any good with either party.

Conclusion is: The 'he' i`m talking to in the evening wasn`t ah teck at all. Instead its his ex... I was like, how could people ever do such thing? Thinking back, he was in school doing his project work and how come he is online and instead changed his msn display pic if he was using a school computer? RAHHH!!

And I have never seen such people before. Her jealousy is real high! We are only friends and I`m not interested in him at all! Do not tell me you do not have any guy friends too? Moreover I don`t wanna be in a relationship right now cos of a simple reason, I`m contented in what I have and the way I`m living now. All I want is to give my heart and be loved by the right person.

Alright, enough of all these....

Both of them in the pictures are my cousins. We used to be really close together when we were young, playing together, sharing secrets.... Now, somehow we`ve drifted apart but nevertheless, we still squeeze out some time to go out together! =)



Just because you`re beautiful
doesn`t mean you don`t do ugly things.
Just because you`re not pretty
doesn`t mean you don`t have the beauty of a flower.
Just because you`re loud
doesn`t mean you hate silences.
Just because you`re quiet
doesn`t mean you have nothing to say.
Just because people see you happy all the time
doesn`t mean you never cry yourself to sleep.
Just because you`re unhappy
doesn`t mean you can never be happy again.
Just because you think it`ll never happen, it just might.

Theres many things going through my mind but i don`t know what they are. I miss many past memories and sometimes i`d wish I were living in them now. When I look out the window and see the streets below me filled with passing cars, and when I look in the dark sky illuminated by the many skyscrapers, I think of many bittersweet memories and it makes me want to cry.

Sometimes, we feel down and out, but we don`t know who to turn to. But theres always someone there. Thanks 'BIG BABY' (you shd know who you are). Love you (:

Hey, hf, cassie and YJ, do not forget our first exchanging of letter next week!

Thanks edz for your advice last night too! Take care of yourself uncle! *Smile*

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i am christine who is blessed with what i have.

i am 27 this year and my birthday falls on 4th august.

i'm just another ordinary girl.
i don't live life to be famous or someone great. i just live
for the success, love and happiness.

Though i may appear aloof at times but im actually approachable.
You will get to realise when you know me better
and how crazy can i be. :)

my life is like a ferris wheel, has it's ups and downs...

Though over the years,i've stumbled on rocks. i know
very well that with each time, I managed to pick myself up.
It makes me to be more wiser and grow stronger
with experiences that i've learnt & gained.

However things that happened didn't bring me down cos i
believe that everything happens for a reason, this may
leads me a happier life. THUS, i'm still generally a
happy person.

:)

Looking back at certain aspects of my life so far,
i can't pride myself upon what makes the me today.
There are way too many regrets.

I feel uber sensitive about everything, thus getting hurt
easily at the slightest remark and i hate to cry infront of everyone.

I live the life the way i want it to be for nobody knows what
future might brings.

I am blessed to have a great caring family and close friends
by my side. They're the ones who will stay by me no matter
what happens and i know i can count on them always.

i meet new people, learning something from each and
every person i've came across.

i would say thay i have grown alot through experience
and exposure to different things these few years.

Sometimes things are complicated including people as well.
It might not turn out the way we want it to be or meeting
people who aren't true to you. Thus, it pretty much
depends on how we see and handle them.

Life's beautiful...
everything around me seems to glow with a touch of magic dust...
lookin' forward to the future..
wanna fly towards my dreams..
just wanna smile n laugh with each passing day with my loved ones...
learn & see more about the world around me..

If I was never good enough, then I will work my way up forever..
strive to be a better person, better friend, better daughter.

live it, love it.. and still learning from it

Appreciate the goodness in life everyone! =)


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christine_wsy88@hotmail.com


LOVES

Little surprise would definitely melt my heart ♥

i love strawberries, strawberry shortcake,
spicy food, hot chocolate, fruit salad,
candies, cupcakes, drama, piano, travel,
perfumes, dresses, white roses, hugs,
handmade cards, written letters, pink color, family.

Loves music and piano has been part of my life
since young at the age of 8.

i love people who are true to me

i yearn to love. and i long to be loved in return.


LONG GONE




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