Friday, May 12, 2006
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I`m having a mixed feeling now.*Hahas*Woke up early in the morning at 7:30am to mit calvin who is my cousin to jog with my bro as well.We jog till 9am den reached home.It had been very long since I jog and my legs are aching now.We have so much fun n laughters along our way.Our bonding are very strong just like siblings.*keke*After that cousin piggy back me down the stairs cz my head suddenly felt very giddy.I`ve been sleeping quite late this few days which is ard 3 to 4am.*Insufficient sleep*Then for the past 2 days,I had gastric pain cz I only ate once a day which is only my dinner.I only have my lunch 2 days out of 5 days in school.N thats the most.Then the rest of the days,my stomach will be empty.Mummy know about that n of course scolded.She n daddy set a rule for me which is to weigh myself everyweek.And if I were to slim down or anything,they will forbid me to go to school.Can`t expect they will think of that.*hehes*

Dad drove us to chinatown to buy our breakfast.Bcoz we were eating half day of vegetarian today n I don`t know why.Hur Hur...After that met up with ben at JE.The purpose was to finish up my project with another friend of mine.Who know she estimate the time wrongly n she only reached at 2pm.Its ok bcoz its very kind of her to travel such a long journey to Jurong.=)

Accompany ben to have his lunch at da entertainment.Went to walk around.He will suddenly tell me that "Hey...isn`t the girl hair very nice?can u go n style like her or something?" Of course U guys will know how I react right?I mean those who are really close to me. I replied "so?" Giving him the kind of expression that I will just heck care lahx..Cz it doesn`t really concern me at all.I just dislike the feeling when someone wants u to change or wad.I mean ur own looks.I love my looks n I find no reason why I should change n follow other people.We walked out of the entertainment n we happened to saw a girl who dressed till veri jap.Then he will tell me again" can u c she`s so jap?" Hey...so what u mean tis time?whats the big deal?Nvm...then we decided to head to popular.Ended up.....I seriously think that we have communication problems.When he speaks,I can`t hear n want him to repeat again.Sometimes,the question he asked,I don`t know how to reply n he will demand for an answer.How sickening is that right?*Haiz*I just hate that feeling.

I will just answer like those common words which are..."hmm...anything,don`t know,what u want?"I really don`t know what to say to him sometimes.I find that we can`t share things at all cz its very difficult.Wheneva I talk to him,I must really think what I want to say first if not he will say I hurt him again.He will get angry of course.N the worst part was,u know what he said?I can`t imagine someone would tell that to me, not even a single of my ex/friends will say that. Because there was a group of girls standing outside the popular so he told me that: " I can get closer to those group of girls than u loh." I was like "wth loh" You can go if u like.U need not report to me anyway.If by doing that makes u feel happy then go ahead.

Anyway since the conversation yesterday nite,then I realised u actually have soOoOo MANY ex that none of u can guess.Its like he can change his ex gf for every 2 weeks in his secondary school life.So u all can roughly guess how many he have lah.Its like 100 plus over.Isn`t that amazing?Er..1st impression I have is of course indeed a very flirt guy n I guess thats what most girls hate.I mean how can u assure that in the future you won`t be like that anymore?You can`t!!Wheneva u c pretty ladies,u will just stare at them n keep on looking.And I really dislike that when someone u were to go out with keep on looking at girls as if u were not there at all.I mean why not u can just sit down on a bench n look at pretty girls everyday when they pass by?What for must u date me out then?I don`t know how I should put it.When will u really settle down n to find a gf that u truly love so that u can treat her seriously?And not go around hurting girls ever again.Or should I say he`s really not sensitive enough or care what others will think of him.A flirt or anything?At least prove me I`m wrong.He can tell u that "Hey can u change or treat me better?" Thats me n accept me for who I am.I don`t like to be control anyway.Perhaps we only can be friends n thats the extreme.The feelings is not there yet...

Throughout so many r/s..I think the "HIM" is the only one who really understand me.Sometimes being with my friends,I will suddenly thought of him but whats the point?Everything is over.Can`t expect me to do silly things n cry again.I`ve got to grow up one day n know what I really want.Since we were meant to be seperate then I believe there`s no way we can ever be back again unless god wants us to.I can`t let him block my way/future if not its only a piece of dark in front of my life.All I want is brightness..All I want is to fulfill my dream.I do regret deeply,cry in the night,cutting my wrist but everything has come to an end.I suddenly think that how silly I am to do such things over someone who don`t care for me at all.There`s no words to describe how hurt I am at that period of time.





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i am christine who is blessed with what i have.

i am 27 this year and my birthday falls on 4th august.

i'm just another ordinary girl.
i don't live life to be famous or someone great. i just live
for the success, love and happiness.

Though i may appear aloof at times but im actually approachable.
You will get to realise when you know me better
and how crazy can i be. :)

my life is like a ferris wheel, has it's ups and downs...

Though over the years,i've stumbled on rocks. i know
very well that with each time, I managed to pick myself up.
It makes me to be more wiser and grow stronger
with experiences that i've learnt & gained.

However things that happened didn't bring me down cos i
believe that everything happens for a reason, this may
leads me a happier life. THUS, i'm still generally a
happy person.

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Looking back at certain aspects of my life so far,
i can't pride myself upon what makes the me today.
There are way too many regrets.

I feel uber sensitive about everything, thus getting hurt
easily at the slightest remark and i hate to cry infront of everyone.

I live the life the way i want it to be for nobody knows what
future might brings.

I am blessed to have a great caring family and close friends
by my side. They're the ones who will stay by me no matter
what happens and i know i can count on them always.

i meet new people, learning something from each and
every person i've came across.

i would say thay i have grown alot through experience
and exposure to different things these few years.

Sometimes things are complicated including people as well.
It might not turn out the way we want it to be or meeting
people who aren't true to you. Thus, it pretty much
depends on how we see and handle them.

Life's beautiful...
everything around me seems to glow with a touch of magic dust...
lookin' forward to the future..
wanna fly towards my dreams..
just wanna smile n laugh with each passing day with my loved ones...
learn & see more about the world around me..

If I was never good enough, then I will work my way up forever..
strive to be a better person, better friend, better daughter.

live it, love it.. and still learning from it

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